Joker and the Blog

Suggested Listening: She Blinded Me with Science by Thomas Dolby off the album The Golden Age of Wireless.

Sooo I did wait until February to post again, but I’m a busy guy.

This is the last leg of senior year, which means it’s the last leg of Sarah Lawrence all together and I don’t know how to feel. I am anxious, a bit excited, but most of all confused. A lot of me doesn’t feel that prepared for “the world” and despite everyone wiser than me saying I don’t need to feel ready…I’d still like to feel a bit more ready. The thing is I’ve been doing so much work on social interpersonal stuff that I might have missed the whole “what I’m going to do to make money” boat.

Can: Sing, act, drive a car. … give hugs…talk about sports.

Can’t: teach, dance, walk dogs (or maybe that’s just Sadie), sell stuff,

Well you get the idea. A couple of nights ago I had a nightmare where I wasn’t fully capable to be integrated back into the real world (as previously indicated, SLC is anything but the real world) and I had to repeat high school. Still have that sleep problem as well.

But I’ve been making the most out of this year. I’ve been putting this blog post off for a little bit just so I could get the stories in order. First off my friend Beth had a half birthday party. A half birthday, as some of the readers might know, is a birthday that is celebrated at the half way mark between actual birthdays because the day itself might conflict with something bigger (like Christmas.). I’ve had a half birthday for a long time now just because a) when I was little most of my friends were busy doing Christmas stuff and now b) most of my friends were busy with finals and/or out of state. Beth had a half birthday because her actual day is in July and wanted to have her slc people around her for one night.

Theme for the party: half. Half present, half dress, half etc. I got her an itunes thing in a birthday card sliced in half.

I also went with no pants on. (Yeeeesss I had boxers though.)

I don’t know how this happened, me losing clothing, but after I did the no pants subway ride thing I found that I have naturally less inhibitions if I put myself into … well the word I want is uncomfortable but that isn’t right. There’s a sort of rush I get when I am placed into situations I’m not really that acclimated to. It gets me going, but also relaxes me and lets me just have a fun time instead of worrying about how I’m perceived by those around me.

That being said, I danced on a table with two other sophomore girls. The soccer guys approved (loudly). Thanks, guys. There were also other shenanigans, but overall it was just a fun night.

I now feel unnatural to stay in on a weekend night. This past weekend, for some reason, SLC just fell flat and there was nothing to do and it irritated me. I do like being a social animal now. I don’t know if its appropriate to call myself a social scientist, but I like the idea. I’m sort of experimenting with myself and getting the proper mindsets in environments. I’ve done a lot of work on being myself again. Relaxing. Smiling.

Auditions have been going on. I got called back for a couple of shows but no casting yet. I have one more Wednesday for Into The Woods, which is apparently a musical by someone named Stephen Sondheim. I’m not trying to be facetious. That last sentence about Sondheim should have been read with a straight face. The thing is, as per usual, I don’t know a thing about theatre. A lot of people are pretty excited we’re doing Into The Woods and…I’ve never heard about it (outside of Louisville HS (our sister high school at crespi) doing it…sophomore year.). It’s apparently fun, and thank god for my friend Dani lending me the soundtrack.

However, the audition requirements are 16-32 bars from a contemporary musical theatre piece. Problem: I don’t know any contemporary musical theatre.

I’m bending the rules and doing Can You Feel The Love Tonight. We’ll see how that goes.

As always, hang loose

--a social scientist.